iloveyou

2005-10-10T21:13:00.000-07:00

I HATE J!! duh. he is being really mean to me and acting as if i wasnt his "soulmate" for a year and weeks... WHY ARE MEN SUCH JERKS SOMETIMES?? i love him so much and he leaves me just like that.. argh. i dislike him na!! loserrrr. whatever!! yeah, and guys like him are..oh sucks, goodddammit.

2005-10-04T22:13:00.000-07:00

school was fine.. got home at around 730! and yes, school? it was great! :) duh! i saw HIM. and he's lookin at ME! *wahapak!* haha. =">

i met a boy, cute as can be..we were strollin..drank lemonade..oh. well ah-well ah-well ah-uh..thats so grease! haha. ü i know..i juz luv d song! sharing haha.. wahhhhh. i miss dddddddd!! sigh..gotta go..tired..missin u so much.. i wish i cud be with u..haha. am i being so desperate? sorry! buhye!

2005-10-03T09:01:00.000-07:00

theres this guy in our school..IM FREAKING OUT...OH MY GOD!! i got his number! Obviously, IM SO INTO HIM! :) and I really miss him..oh shocks.. whats happening to me..? now I think something happened because I cant stop thinking of him!*constantly..lalala..* haha. don't know what to do because Im scared he'll reject me if I tell him anything.. i know...its funny. the hell i care what other people say about me.. I think he stalks me.. kidding ü Im super attracted to him..he's the cutest!ü or shud i say the most adorable man?ü

ayeth: u know naman na luv ko si..you know hu..and im really happy for him now that he found his princess.. :)

back to my story...argh.. I WANNA KNOW HIM..so bad..Age doesnt matter, right? hahaha!! you guys like eachother, it REALLY doesn't matter anyway*smiles*

2005-09-22T21:41:00.000-07:00

its been some time since the last update...This has happened to me since my last post..the last post is..hindi totoo [browse]..had our retreat..yesss, it was fun..really enjoyed the retreat!!! grabeh, AS IN ANG SAYA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! hahaha!!!!!! cleaned my room? NO WAY!!!...memorized my elocution piece..UHM...I HAVE TO!! huhu..what else...ewan ko na............kanina..reporting in filipino..nagalit sila classmates!! :)) kasi galing ko magturo!! whahaha!! thats all for nowwwwwwww bye... :) SORRY GUYS!+peace out+I MISS YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!! argh. some girls..are just plain flirt!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!ryt???stay away from him, please?

just wanna be happy but i dont think i can be.

2005-08-29T11:43:00.000-07:00

just want to be happy again. i dont really have anything to say..except that i feel like shit..and i have no idea why..sigh. i think that there might be something wrong with me..i know there is thats why im fuckin depressed right now.. i don't deserve anyones time, anyones friendship, anyones love. im a horrible, awful person..just wanna be happy. thats all & i think he got the impression that i dont wanna ever get back together or anything.. and thats not what i meant by what i said.. :(

all i want is one chance
one chance for your love
i just wana make you happy
i just wana be thought of.

each and every day
so very hard,i've tried
to find a new way
to keep you satisfied

and after everything i did for you
i cant believe you still lied to me.

was i not good enough for you?
did I have to be decieved?

if you were with her,
why did you keep me around?
i guess one way or another
someone else will be found

so when i am gone,
she can take my place
if im just here to be shown,
then i can be replaced

i just want to be loved. is that so wrong?

btw, today is my day..his day..our day..supposedly. hope youre happy now. sob.

2005-08-28T14:53:00.000-07:00

went to gb3 yesterday. so hot. okay :) we watched sisterhood..bout friendship crap :) i saw mikka and my sisters kada. they attended a debut. whocares. it was fun. fun. fun. :))

argh. had a bath.

theres a paper in the doorknob..wonders. threw it/lol *singing while having a bath* the water is so cool. i took me half an hour. *opens the door* OMG its locked. i didnt knw that the paper was.. okay. to keep the door open coz its fuckin broken *yelling..asking for HELP!"* the maid comes..trying to open the door..okay..continue bathing. haha. an hour passed, ok..my life is saved. haha. ~~wish my prince was with me in the shower. yikees!..~~ enuf.

my last entry was nasty. i shudnt posted it and..all those shits..thats why im apologizing...IM SORRY. and this time, i mean it.

it feels like im in heaven. geeez. so into him. HOT.

2005-08-25T09:19:00.000-07:00

im so hapy today. finally..ntapos ko nrn. i slept 1 am para dun. greatness. my big problem na nga lang pano ko bbigay sknya. if theres a will theres a way.. :) anyway, school was fine. i got a high score in accounting..oh yaaaaa.

theres dis old woman in school. way way freaky. a.k.a. Matandang *guesswho* Makunat* everybodddilicious hates her. coz she thinks she knows everything! dream on. dirty old lady. :)) youre a criminal. youre nothing. grar. i hate her and she hates me. obviously. duh. and theres dis guy..i think hes mad at me. sigh.. :( i hope things will be okay....peace out:)

2005-08-22T21:51:00.000-07:00

dang.

school was fine. i guess. except for one thing...gens, my husband, was absent. what happened to you, gens?:-)) oh yeah, and when erika delivered her talumpati..most of us cried. including myself. :)

so fetched

i HATE how much i LOVE you..

why cant you just LOVE me for me?

~~pointless.~~ hope~~less.~~

i can't forget everything we've done. i cant pretend i'm not hurting..i cant make u see how much i need u back in my life, but i can put a fake smile on my face to make u believe that I’m happy when really deep inside...i’m crying.

but i guess this is how it ends..in the end we remained friends though i’m not sure what kind i mean from lovers to friends, were still somewhere in between..

2005-08-21T18:40:00.000-07:00

finally exams over. shesh. okay. last friday went to madels party. it was fun. haha. went home early and thats ~~so nice.~~

my life is so fucked up right now. okay.

yesterday. we had a CAT training. more fun. fun. NOT. went to yoans and beas houses :-) last night..so hot. i chatted with him, you know who you are. ~~wish u were here baby coz im missin u.~~ gimme a call.

seeing your smile makes me go wild, being in your arms, i know there's no harm, and feeling the warmth of your kiss, is something that i would always miss.

2005-08-16T09:35:00.000-07:00

I made this blog for my one and only.. :)

I LOVE YOU...

seasons passed one by one,
and things had changed when
you were gone,
even though youre not with me,
my love for you will forever be.

youre the one whos in my heart,
whom i cant leave when were apart,
i promised myself i wont regret,
for youre the boi ill never forget.

people come and people go,
but no, ill never let you go
though some say to let you go,
you know i cant cause i love you so.

now you know my love is true,
hope youll see till the day is through,
for it is real and from my heart,
i love you dear, thats why im here.

now you know that i love you,
that all the words that i will send,
thats so real for youre my love,
if only you i can have.

<3lotsa, mae buquid.

miss you.